Some Parts of Me that Weren’t Dead Last Year
It’s hard to identify myself thoughout 2023 since I lost a lot last year. Things have become blurry and unrecognizable and I’m cutting off people easily to seek comfort and peace.
They said 2023 was the best time of their life, and I used to wish the same. I still wish, even at this moment, to have had the most amazing and memorable year back then in 2023, but perhaps I was wrong. My calculation about last year was incorrect; I thought 2023 would’ve been my year since I obtained my degree and got my first real job. Again and again, I had to endure several conditions where I slowly lost myself. So many breakups, heartbreaks, and sorrows to experience in just one year.
Drowning in so many thoughts late at night made me believe that hardships can be sickening, and suffering is the only way to hold on. I didn’t have much time to treat myself right last year until I realized there are still so many things to be grateful for. The number of times I spent contemplating in my bed had become more fulfilling than ever because I started to learn about myself more and more. I began to love myself even more.
For instance, I had the chance to travel extensively last year with my family, explore new restaurants, socialize with friends, make new acquaintances in unfamiliar places, learn numerous new things, enhance my skills.
And I realized that some parts of me weren’t truly dead. There’s still beauty in life I can savor, and I cherish the time spent surrounded by those I love and who love me the most.
Happy New Year, I hope this year brings an abundance of hope and joy for all of us. May 2024 be a clean slate filled only with laughter and good times, blessed more than ever, and to feel alive like never before.
p.s.:
Whenever you feel sad and like giving up, always remember that you faced the most heartbreaking events last year and still managed to make it to the end.
You survived this year as you should, enduring the pain as you always have. Surviving this year means you can endure another year, another heartbreak, another struggle, another pain, and another meaningless drama.
Chin up greater things are coming your way.
